Life

Arg! For fuck's sake, where do people get the idea that submissive means weak or demure? If I hear one more person say to me "You don't seem very submissive, you're pretty straight forward" I'm going to flip a damn lid! They automatically seem to think that I'm Dominant or Domme because of it and try to get me to play those roles. Guess what, for those of you who don't know, someone can be both a submissive and assertive. Not everyone deserves my submission. Not everyone is going to get it.

Hello, my dear blog. I miss you. I've been quite busy over the past month, dealing with an emergency involving my cousin's…ass. And I've found out that said cousin has other health issues… as if trying to bleed to death after a routine fucking colonoscopy wasn't bad enough, now the bitch might have an arrhythmia. *sighs* This 'bitch', as I affectionately refer to her as, was there for me when I was little and going through so much, when my mom was working, when Childs' Services stepped in and the custody battles raged.

When I was growing up, my mother was a big Nazi over what I could wear and what I couldn't. I always hung out with different people from all groups of social standing in school, not sticking or conforming to one specific group. Because of her not allowing me to wear what I wanted, I sort of went wild with it after I turned eighteen. I've since learned that 'Goth' isn't what's on the outside. It's what's on the inside. I wasn't allowed to wear all black unless it was for a DECA business meeting or something of that nature. Or a funeral.